I can't sleep. I know its not really *that* late yet but I feel so twitchy that I darent even try to get to sleep. I felt so guilty earlier about what money I had spent on Christmas presents (not really a massive amount but still enough that I felt really guilty) I spoke to husband who told me it wasn't a problem and I shouldn't worry about it but I still feel uneasy about it. Added to that I have my assessment appointment tomorrow and I don't know why I am so stressed about it. I know it is going to be a waste of time when I am expected to go through my life history and then at the end they will tell me that CBT will help so they wil put me on the waiting list for it and in the meantime here is a CPN for you to see. Two and a half years ago I was put on the list for CBT. I've never heard any more about it. My experience with CPNs is not great so I don't really want to go down that line again but unfortunately I think that is what I will be offered... So why am I anxious about tomorrow if I am fairly certain of what will happen 1) what happens if I can't find a parking space? 2) what happens if I am late either as a result of 1 or for some other reason 3) what if they are unpleasant or shout at me about a missed appointment in the past (which wasn't my fault. I tried to let them know I couldn't attend) 4) what about the unknown?
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